Post by Valentina Lemay on Oct 9, 2016 4:29:17 GMT
Hey everyone,
Unfortunately I’ve woken up this morning to this message from Davey.
He simply doesn’t want to do this anymore and is walking away. I wish that I could do this on my own, but I just can’t. When we started it was on the basis that we’d help each other out every week with the shows, because neither of us had the time to do it completely on our own. With him walking away it means that realistically, EOW has to close. Despite it now being bi-weekly work for me, it’s just still not possible for me to keep it going.
I’m sorry to all of you who have been enjoying it and hope that you have fun wherever you may end up.
Take care,
Leila.
Unfortunately I’ve woken up this morning to this message from Davey.
“I don’t think I can do this. This past week has just worn me down to the point where there’s no fun in it and it feels like a job.
Like, certain people have fucked me off by being constantly negative and shitty and I don’t usually hold onto things but I can’t shake it. Then there’s feeling under the weather physically. Then there’s being drained from overhauling the site graphics to factor in the merging brands. Then there’s the departures that totally throw storylines right in the middle of a run. Then there’s the fact that it’s all just a big pointless game, intended to be fun or why bother? But it feels like a job now and not some fun. Victory results both weeks hit me I think.
So because of all the upheaval around the site and the extra work that kept me from being able to tackle the show over a few days, little bits at a time, it’s mounting up and it’s become a little overwhelming. That’s the issue. I mean, granted there’s help there but there’s no motivation on my part. I don’t need help. I need someone to take it off my hands altogether and just let me walk away for a week.
You know I’m constantly preaching about how this is just a game and it’s not serious at all. That’s my attitude to things. Plus, there’s like a daily occurrence whereby handlers will come to me with “problems” that get pitched like it’s the end of the world when it’s all just totally fucking irrelevant lol. It feels like a babysitting facility at times. Like, where are all the adults at?
I can see how quiet it all is, like there’s a disconnect because of the changes. Why am I gonna write 15k of results for passive “meh, i’ll get around to reading it”? As if I’m doing this for my benefit or for the good of my health?”
Like, certain people have fucked me off by being constantly negative and shitty and I don’t usually hold onto things but I can’t shake it. Then there’s feeling under the weather physically. Then there’s being drained from overhauling the site graphics to factor in the merging brands. Then there’s the departures that totally throw storylines right in the middle of a run. Then there’s the fact that it’s all just a big pointless game, intended to be fun or why bother? But it feels like a job now and not some fun. Victory results both weeks hit me I think.
So because of all the upheaval around the site and the extra work that kept me from being able to tackle the show over a few days, little bits at a time, it’s mounting up and it’s become a little overwhelming. That’s the issue. I mean, granted there’s help there but there’s no motivation on my part. I don’t need help. I need someone to take it off my hands altogether and just let me walk away for a week.
You know I’m constantly preaching about how this is just a game and it’s not serious at all. That’s my attitude to things. Plus, there’s like a daily occurrence whereby handlers will come to me with “problems” that get pitched like it’s the end of the world when it’s all just totally fucking irrelevant lol. It feels like a babysitting facility at times. Like, where are all the adults at?
I can see how quiet it all is, like there’s a disconnect because of the changes. Why am I gonna write 15k of results for passive “meh, i’ll get around to reading it”? As if I’m doing this for my benefit or for the good of my health?”
He simply doesn’t want to do this anymore and is walking away. I wish that I could do this on my own, but I just can’t. When we started it was on the basis that we’d help each other out every week with the shows, because neither of us had the time to do it completely on our own. With him walking away it means that realistically, EOW has to close. Despite it now being bi-weekly work for me, it’s just still not possible for me to keep it going.
I’m sorry to all of you who have been enjoying it and hope that you have fun wherever you may end up.
Take care,
Leila.
